Frush-tray-ted

Here we go again, I feel like I'm having deja vu, but the sad thing is what's happening now happened almost the exact same way about two years ago. Awesome. I know I just posted on how girls need to stop being bitter, and get over it. But like I said, I have fallen into that cycle and I feel like I'm getting sucked back in. Let's review shall we?

-There's 2 dudes, and they just so happen to be the same ones.
-There's me.
-There's an uber cute friend who I love dearly.
-And last but not least, there's recurring feelings.

Dude #1-
Super sweet, super shy and overall frustrating. I feel like he's avoiding me but at the same time he still texts me all the time (he's not a talker, conversations are all non-verbal with this kid.) I'm sick of putting in the effort to make something happen, but I remember how much time and effort it took with him the first time around. But I can't decide if I want to put the energy into it all over again. I'm in this constant argument with myself whether I should text him and and invite him to hang out or just to talk, because I know that once I get him back into his comfort zone things with him could be fabulous.

Dude #2-
Ever heard of the Friend Zone? Well, guess who can't get out of it? This girl! He is without a doubt my best guy friends, scratch that, one of my BEST friends. I'm fairly sure he knows how I feel about him and he totally uses it to his advantage. He could get me to do almost anything, but when it comes down to it he turns to the uber cute friend for the stuff that really matters. For example let's say we're watching a movie, he'll start out sitting by me cause I'll scratch/rub/tickle his back and head and just when I think he's ready to go in for the cuddle, what does he do? Moves to the cute friend for the hand-holding and cuddling and all that disgustingly cute affectionate crap, hanging me out to dry. Awesome, burning hole in my heart, you feel great. Now the smart thing would be to just ignore it and stop giving into him, but that's not something I can do. I've had a thing for him since my junior year of high school, that's practically 5 years people. And I personally think that I will always have feelings for this kid, and I think that maybe someday those feelings could be mutual, but all the heartache hurt may not be worth the wait.

I guess my only hope is a meet some amazing guy soon, or one of these two morons realize what they are passing up when the treat me like poo. Positive thoughts right? Maybe with all that good mojo I'll come out on top for once.